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Feb. 1st, 2012 12:49 am[Filter: Private]
This is just ... ugghhh. I can't do anything. I can't go anywhere! I am so trapped in this city. On any given night the taverns are full of too many eyes. There are so many girls who just know each other, and there's no room for anyone who hasn't spent all their time forming circles. There are barriers around anything fun to do even if I wanted to blow off steam. So I have to sit in my room and drink. And think. And wish that this whole life had turned out different.
I miss Timothy. No, I don't. I just miss sex. I don't really need anyone for that, but ugh. It should be easy to get! And Rose Day is coming up! I can't even cook for anyone for this one. The soldiers here are going to be showered with meals. I don't really know anyone either.
So. Vodka. Ughhhh.
This is just ... ugghhh. I can't do anything. I can't go anywhere! I am so trapped in this city. On any given night the taverns are full of too many eyes. There are so many girls who just know each other, and there's no room for anyone who hasn't spent all their time forming circles. There are barriers around anything fun to do even if I wanted to blow off steam. So I have to sit in my room and drink. And think. And wish that this whole life had turned out different.
I miss Timothy. No, I don't. I just miss sex. I don't really need anyone for that, but ugh. It should be easy to get! And Rose Day is coming up! I can't even cook for anyone for this one. The soldiers here are going to be showered with meals. I don't really know anyone either.
So. Vodka. Ughhhh.
